Im 35 and my husband is 40..we have been married for 10 years with beautiful kids. To cut the long story short, our relationship has been a rocky one from the beginning. It has never being peaceful and I'm always the one who gets hurt. while truly believing my husband has no clue how our tumultuous relationship has worn me down emotionally. Well a couple of days ago something happened. I completely shut down and can hardly feel anything. I am apathetic towards him. I know its a defense mechanism of some sort, but I have no control over it. I am not in love with him, definitely, however, I care deeply for him, as weve been together for ten years. He has caused a lot of pain with being a workaholic, insensitive, no interests outside of work, highly stressed, moody, etc. Never physical with me but I believe there have been phases of emotional abuse and extreme lack of empathy over the obvious pain he can inflict on me. So my question is, has anyone ever gotten to the point to where you just don't FEEL anything when it comes to your spouse? I don't want conversation, hugs, definitely not sex, although I feel very deprived (he doesn't withhold, more the opposite). Can I recover from this? I am so extremely lonely, but do not wish for him to fill the void anymore. What can be done? Thanks
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