Mentaly Drained By My Husband:

Dear Readers,

My husband and I have been married for 7 years. We now have an 8 month old and a 3 year old. We have been through more than I'd like to admit. From one fight , being together at the time, from getting back together, cheating, physical, emotional, verbal abuse by him. I look at the person I've become now and I no longer like who I am. I never would've thought I would allow myself to be in this type of situation. My husband has drank and left me for hours at home with our kids and no vehicle not caring to return my calls and only texting me cursing me out for worrying about where he is or what he is doing. My problem with his drinking is how he becomes rude and mean towards me. He has physically hurt me while drinking and I have fought back. He has lied to me about working late to have beers with a friend. I do not work. I stay home with our children.He doesn't work during the week. But it's become a habit to have a few beers everyday after work. My main concern is our two kids and how they're affected. To me it feels like he is never home and when he is I try to be happy and enjoy what little time we have by not trying to argue or fight with him about the smallest things. It has become hard for me to just be happy he is home and it's getting even harder to not get angry about every little thing he does. He has mentally drained me from all the things he's done and said to me. I feel like I've lost my strength to keep trying for our family. I have put aside myself for a very long time. I am just looking for opinions, anyone's. There's many details I have left out. I have tried to explain without writing too much.